Yesterday I found that actually I dislike birthday. It is not because I'm become older but I scare to become alone. Who else will really remember my birthday without any reminder? I think less than 10 people.

I thought I have already let go. But actually I'm still care. My heart is super duper pain yesterday. Cant even sleep well! I can still feel the pain even though I'm dreaming. Oh my god~ This is the first time I feel like this. I hope it wont happen again. I just wish to sleep tight.