Seriously, I really feel very bad right now. This is the very first time I cant control myself and cry out although my parents are sitting beside me. I really hate the feeling to become the second choice. I've tried to be not care about everything but I failed to do so. Everything was happened out of my control, I seriously dislike this!! Why would people that do not care about other people's feeling exist in this world? Or I should say I'm not important enough for the person to take care about my feeling? =(